Doll Updates and Second Life Drama

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A lot of things have been going on and Im dead tired and going to take a nap. I thought my sleep schedule got all worked out, but it didn't last long.

Amongst dollieness I am an avid player of Second Life. Its like dressing digital dolls. Well... apparently the RP sim that I am apart of (Crossroads) have screwed my girlfriends best friend over and used me in the process. Not to mention her boyfriend also caused a good bit of shit too. Today was the last straw with everyone continually trying to bring it up when im just trying to enjoy my time AWAY from the sim and build my clothing. Well for fuck sake... I couldn't take it anymore. I snapped. Luv, PV's friend, was the one who got screwed over and everytime it came up no one ever brought up Luv like she didnt mean anything and that pissed me off. I finally just had it snapped with Sy and Drahana and said what about LUV? Luv owns everything. She is the leader of the Tremere. She owned Gothika and Beluved keep. They didn't even seem to fucking care. They didnt give a flying fuck about her. I was like wtf... I talked to Luv today wanting to know if she was going to go back to crossroads. She said she doesnt see herself going back there. I don't want to go back either and the only reason I stuck around... was for PV. I stayed for her. I dealt with the drama... dealt with the shitty ass rps that were there that made absolutely no sense. Its like a beginners RP sim. Nothing matters. Nothing is dark. Everyone whines. On top of that Guin was feigning ignorance and acting innocent like she didnt do shit. She acted like PV and Luv didnt bitch her out on Skype. Im sorry. I trust my girlfriend. She wont lie to me. I wont lie to her. Honesty is the best answer. Pitting others against one another for the sake of your own damn benefit is low and sick and just absolutely immature. Last damn straw. I am sure my girlfriend PV is going to be pissed... but I am not going to suffer and not build and enjoy myself on SL. I want to have fun. I want to enjoy myself. I dont want to sit there and play Perfect world the whole time. Its boring me. Like BADLY. She will be angry im sure for a long time... but you know this is my choice. There were many times I ignored them and they didn't continue to badger. Im done with that place. I don't want to go back. I am not going to be there and be unhappy. I don't know how many times to said to those trying to get answers from me that I was done talking about this and people kept bugging me. PV is so good at just not letting questions or anything get to her when she doesnt want to talk. Me? I am not so good at it. I tried. Drah and Sy didnt cause anything... but their lack of respect of Luv is like disrespecting PV. Guin and Rave? Oh ho ho.... They pulled the guilt trip of Wahhhh QQ im leaving SL im leaving XR. Im sitting there like. Dude... I dont fucking care. Im leaving. Have your shitty ass built sim. I don't want it. The badgering and pressure gets to me and I just cant take it anymore. Im done with the drama.

Now that i got that off my chest... and im sure im gonna have to explain myself later to PV.

As far as dollies.... Ive been writing more to the Peavie and Lucca chronicals... as well as taking pictures of the story with the characters. I need more spray for faceups. Yes I use Krylon Matte finish 1311. It actually works really well. Everyone gets emo about the acetone stuff... i looked up MR super clear... its got the same amount as Krylon and testors. Its not a big deal and people have used it before with no sideaffects. Now that im REALLLLLY tired now... I am going to put myself to bed for a nap and get up around the evening. I think im going to take two of my sleeping pills and go to bed early tonight rather than stay up. I want to be up in time for the anniversary tomorrow granted my Lover wont be mad at me for leaving. I just.... couldnt do it anymore... I should be happy to go on that game and enjoy myself... not getting stressed.

Anyways. Love you guys who actually read this... which is like what... one? LOL :)

<3 Sama